a moody little piece of nonsense

Water is the sound of small boys throwing stones and chunks of iron and old bones into the ocean. Water is the sound of bones dissolving. Water is a black sound. Is there a blacker sound?

“Who goes there?” asks the moon. The moon had been sleeping in the sun, just the crescent of its eye is open.

“We do,” say the neck bones.

“We do,” say the vertebra along the upper spine.

“We do,” say the plates and blades and sticks of bones, the ligaments, the balls and sockets of the shoulders.

“Hold us up,” they say to the moon.

“I can’t,” the moon replies. “Your strings are broken.”

The swish and swirling chuckle of the ocean as it sucks the marrow from the bones and grinds them down and pulverizes them?

A distant sound like church bells ringing from the sandy cones of anthills. A pure sound, with tiny undertones of gravity, and rain approaching?

Rain through fig trees, rain through broad leaves, rain through palm trees, rain through sand, washing nutrients from tired bones.

“What of our addition?” say the old ones, “Our subtraction?
Our multiplication? Our division?”

“Your calculus is sand, your sand is glass, your glass is time, your time is mine,” the wind hisses through teeth closed against the rain. ”I am coming for you now. Are you ready? Get ready then.”

The old guys hoot and cackle so as the wind removes their arms and legs, their livers and at last, their heads. Without heads they can’t remember anything.

“Begin again,” the moon suggests. “Start with a rocking motion.”

“One starfish from the ocean, two starfishes on the sand, three turtles and a house of glass, an hourglass, a box of time. A zero moving in a stream. A little thing. A rose. A rose is missing.”

“Where is my rose?” I asked the moon. I was with the other kids tossing things into the ocean. I had found a piece of bone. Raised threads across an etched surface. Minute breaks and cracks, star patterns. One end sheared. Inside were hidden chambers, hollow rooms, supporting columns. I felt something. The wind laughed. I knew the moon winked at the wind. I chucked the thing into the ocean and heard the sound a grain of sand makes when it separates and falls, featherless and mostly round, through the hourglass when the glass is opening.

“Where is my Rose?” I ask again.

The moon says nothing; it seems saddened. The wind puts bow to string and turns. His audience is the universe that I am standing in. I cover my ears but I still hear the sound. Sad notes run down the string and I am crying.

“Why am I crying?” I ask the moon.

“Your Rose,” the moon prompts kindly.

“Hush,” says the wind. The wind is always hushing someone.

Now the scene has changed. The boys are gone. Gone the ocean, beaches, sand. Water is a black sound where creation was. Water is an opening in the wind. Water is a mindless thing. The wind is endless repetition. Water is oblivion, my hearts longing.

“Chide me, then.” I say to the wind. “Say something.” Willows weep around me but they are water trees, like cypress. They were meant to weep and go on weeping.

I can’t ask the moon for answers. The moon won’t answer direct questions. Focus on the crashing breakers and the star above the sound.

“I want to know who you are.” I say to the star.

It danced with rose and amber through horizons layered without end, mists the final breath of friends, enemies, lovers and companions. Endless generations and that single point which burned so fine an opening through every one. For a second the dots connect and then the mist rolls in again. I reach and see my hand dissolve.

“Dissolve the rest of me,” I demand, but the wind refuses to hold coherent sound. I have my thoughts, my emotions. I have my sense of dread and my well-honed sense of longing. I have air but it will not carry words.

I was upset. It is so hard, using prayers when I want to tear words out of paper and paste them on the sky.

Every new horizon brings a concerto of popping strings, and each time I return I see my star and I say, “Come here, come home to me.”

“I am home,” the star sings. “I light a world. I can’t leave.”

“You are a coward”, I whispered into my tin can. “You are not brave. You should not do this to me.”

She did not answer. She did not leave, she drew no closer, nor did the pattern of stars around her change.

“Leave them!” I cried.

No answer. I turned to the moon.

I explained my situation. I said, “No power here, I have no power.”

“Neither you, nor any other,” said moon to flower.

“And I don’t feel much like a flower.”

“You are,” the moon said. “You are.”

Tell me, how can I believe I am a flower when the life I breathed for is such a dim star, so far away, over so much water?

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5 Responses to a moody little piece of nonsense

  1. amuirin says:

    this seemed, in so many points, like a dream. There were sentences I might pluck out and expand because they were so solid and so vibrant,

    but that’s work for a magpie.


  2. johemmant says:

    It is beautiful and I am just in the middle of writing about stars 🙂


  3. rick mobbs says:

    My nest is a little cluttered with sparkly things but once I get that under control I’m just the magpie for the job. Thanks, amuirin.


  4. rick mobbs says:

    Tell us about the stars, johemmant…


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